Friday (14/12/07)

Was supposed to go for morning jog with my bf at 7.30am but he overslept. I waited for half an hour before plucking up my courage to ring the bell and entered his house. His mum probably didn't know that we had arranged to go for the jog at 7.30am. Well...I think I was pretty impolite and so I'm quite unsure whether his parents like me though.

His mum baked good cakes though. She was baking the marble cake for the patients at the Hospice Care Association when I went there. We went jogging in the end.

Then we left for the HCA at about 11.30am. The people there clearly likes him and welcomes his presence. Haha the future doctor=)

I liked it there. One lady reminds me of my deceased grandma. Even the clothes that they wore are the same. Wonder whether it's a good memory or not. Well the difference is that she speaks in Hokkien whereas my grandma speaks Teochew. I miss my grandma. That lady told me how her grandchildren cannot speak or understand Hokkien. That's why they always ask 'Ah ma, ni shuo shen me?' It reminds me of how my grandparents thought that I can't understand or speak Teochew, although I could. I knew that they were pretty sad that I seldom talk to them in Teochew, but the fact is that my grandfather can speak mandarin so I don't see the point in speaking in Teochew. Well, there isn't much use talking about it now now that they are both in heaven.

Really felt the Christmas season there. And the old folks were so happy just by dancing to the christmas songs being sung. They must really have been neglected by their family members. And they have miraculously survived for many more years than they are told to by the doctors. Most of them are cancer patients believed not to be able to live beyond 2 and a half years. But the happiness and the friendship among the patients there probably helped prolonged their lives. I always held the belief that as long as you have the determination and faith, even the most undesirable illness cannot take your life away. I can't imagine myself sucuumbing to an illness just like that. I'll definitely struggle with the death God till the end.

I'll visit again, most likely in April during my summer break. However, I'll be very sad should the people whom I talked to today are no longer around, especially that lady. This made me certain that I cannot be a doctor. Because I'm too emotional. I can't possibly cry each time I see a death. and I don't wanna reach that stage whereby I'm totally immuned to all deaths. I don't want to be a hard-hearted person.

At 5pm, all the patients are supposed to be sent home in the buses provided by the hospice. Wanted to spend more time with my boyfriend since he's going to be away for 3 whole weeks. I'll miss him. So we went shopping instead. Watched an ice skating performance. Reminds me of how I used to ice-skate when I was young. (Aargh, I miss my childhood again). Ate at Fish and Co. I ordered stingray but couldn't finish most of it. So my boyfriend helped me finish most of it. The mushroom soup is super nice.

Haha he has some flaws too. He lacks courage at times. He dare not try bungee jumping or roller coaster. He said he has a weak heart, but I don't think it's the problem of his heart but the problem lies in his lack of courage. Especially so since he dares not maneuvre round the tunnel with those balls. Where did I go to play with those ball pool when I was young? I can't really remember. He needs to be a bit more courageous though. Haha. (hope he does not read this, if not he'll probably kill me for revealing this in public). But hopefully, nobody reads this blog.

Actually I realized that I do feel comfortable with him. He's the only guy whom I can say whatever I wanted without feeling restricted or awkward. Guess it's because he's very easygoing and does not take things to heart. His character is definitely compatible with mine and we get along well. He could just be the right person for me.

So we just walk and walk and walk. Then we left for home at around 9pm.